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Well, yesterday after my workout and shower I did my hair and make up just to make me feel better.  I’m finally getting back to where I can look in the mirror and think, huh that’s not too bad.  I was talking to my dad about feeling crappy, I know that’s uncommon, but he raised me, anyways, and he said something that really made me feel good.  You see I have 4 sisters and my Dad works at a restoration body shop so on his tool box is a picture of all of his girls and he said that he’s had so many guys ask about me!  Check that out!  I’m not arogant or anythig trust me, and I’m not some flashy girl lookin to be a trashy girl or somethin, it just felt nice to know someone thought that I was beautiful.  You see I’ve had really bad relationships where the people survive by making me feel less and less confident in myself since I was 14 years old.  My first daughter’s dad and I got together when I was 14 and he was 16 and that relationship was based on codependance, but he didn’t like his friends thinking I was hot so he’d tell me he didn’t see what they thought was so great.  Turns out he’s psycho anyways, but still.  Then my little two’s dad who is over weight and just flat out mean feels bad about himself so he’d put me down. I take this as a positive to be able to see that it was not really anything wrong with me in that way.  I’m just glad to know that I’m on the right track to getting healthy, fit, and hot! 

Bathing suit season is a bit far off, which means it’s the perfect time to start developing the flat, sexy tummy you swear you’ll work on every year. Even if you loathe crunches, you’ll love the following easy, no-equipment moves. Work a few of these moves into your exercise routine three times a week (easing them in minimizes soreness), and then after two weeks, do them all together in one session. Then don’t be surprised if you find yourself surfing the web for bikinis, preparing to reveal your sleek new abs surfside.

Plank pose
Balance on toes and forearms (or palms) for up to a minute, pulling belly button to spine and keeping back straight.
 
Standing bicycle
Stand with feet hip-width apart, knees slightly bent, hands clasped behind head and elbows pointed out to sides. Straighten left leg as you lift right leg, knee bent, thigh parallel to floor. Keeping knee lifted and steady, twist torso toward right. Return to start. Repeat on other side for one rep. Do 10 reps.

Side winder
Stand with feet hip-width apart, knees slightly bent, hands clasped behind head and elbows pointed out to sides. Lift right leg to side, knee bent, thigh parallel to floor. Keeping knee lifted, bend torso to right side, bringing elbow and knee toward each other. Do 10 reps; switch sides; repeat.

Seesaw
Stand with feet shoulder-width apart, knees slightly bent, hands on hips. Lift right leg, knee bent, thigh parallel to floor with foot flexed. Straighten right leg, pressing heel toward floor, as you lean torso backward. Return to knee lift position and repeat five times. Switch sides and repeat.

Forward bend
Stand with feet hip-width apart, knees slightly bent, arms overhead with palms facing in. Lift right leg, knee bent, thigh parallel to floor. Keeping knee lifted and arms raised, bring torso and knee toward each other as close as you can. Return to start; switch sides and repeat for one rep. Do 10 reps.

Hey guys!  I’m dealing with so much crap now I feel like I’m going insane!  My husband just started a “diet” yesterday.  What this means to him is that he’s making me count his calories for him.  I’m doing my best to focus on me, but he’s driving me crazy!  This morning I made his breakfast, 2 servings of Raisin Bran with 1 cup skim milk, and he freaked out on me for not writing it down immediately.  It’s drving me crazy!  He snuck some candy in last night and I said I don’t care, just don’t lose any weight then.  I didn’t mean to sound rude, but he’s making me do all of the work of him losing weight, and then he tries to sneak stuff.  I don’t get it.  I feel like he’s not really ready if I need to babysit him with every step.  I’ve showed him some great websites, not this one though because I need some me space on the net.  Anyways, do you guys think I’m being mean?  He keeps saying now how he’s going to lose weight and I’ll stay fat.  That is makin me want to knock his head off alone.  I was hoping that this could bring us closer together, but it’s already driving me insane.  I think he needs to do some of it on his own, and I feel like I’m doing it all.  You see he doesn’t work out, and so all of his portion control, packing his lunch perfectly, measuring everything I serve him.  I don’t know why, but it’s making me mad that he isn’t being a more active part in his life change.  I just don’t see how he’ll ever do it on his own if I have to do everything for him.  Thanks for the support, and I’m sorry for ranting and for this blog being so unorganized and all.  Thanks!

Okay so I woke up this morning feeling fat :(  I hate those days, I lost 4 lbs last week and need to be proud of that and push hard to reach my goal of196 (2 more lbs down) for this week.  I’ve decided to try to just add on some extra mini workout things through this week to keep my spirits up and try to make my goal.  So far I’ve done my National Body Challenge workouts, and 14 boy push ups, and I want to get in atleast an hour of walking.  I am also going to try to get in atleast 2000 crunches by Valentine’s Day.  At first I thought that sounded like a lot, but it’s only approx. 61 daily until then.  I just am so scared of hitting a plateau because I’ve lost great the last 2 weeks.  I need inspiration to keep goin and push hard so that I can get through this week. 

 Oh yeah, and did I mention that my husband is supposed to be starting a “diet’ today?  On fitday.com it says with his work he can still have like 3200 calories a day to lose 2 lbs a week.  Geez, I work out and he doesn’t plus I’m eating 2000 less calories a day, isn’t that crazy!?  Anyways, we’ve had so many problems lately and I’m hoping that he’ll stick to it and maybe through doing it together then we can find a way of life that includes encouraging each other, and mend some of the pain between us.  I’m not getting my hopes up too high though.  Life is hard and I’m just hoping that I’ll catch a break soon so that  I can stop having such a hard time avoiding my emotional eating. 

 On my sleep issues: I figured out Friday that by eating the very small portions that I usually have in the morning and then working out like crazy that I left my body on empty.  I’m now changing all of that.  I try to eat a pretty big breakfast of about 400 calories, then a 300 calorie lunch, 100 calorie snack, and then use the remaining 400 calories for dinner.  So far so good.  I’m also making a doctor’s appointment to see if my iron pills need to be adjusted due to my anemia.  Thanks so much guys for your support!!!!

I got up this morning knowing that this weekend would be the start of a change that will effect every weekend from here through October.  You see when hunting season is in my husband is gone every Saturday and working out is so much easier, but now it’s over :(  This morning I did well with my bowl of cheerios for breakfast, and 1/4 of a waffle without syrup for lunch along with some strawberries, but then I didn’t know how I was going to get my workout in.  Thank God his uncle called and needed his help.  No far I’ve got my National Body Challenge workouts in for today and will be doing my walking as soon as I get done with this blog, but what am I going to do the rest of the time with him here?  I need my workouts daily to keep me going, and I can’t workout with him here.  Not only is it embarrassing, but I don’t need him picking on me for being soaked in sweat or something.  I just need him to stay gone for like an hour and a half each day.  Even if he’s just outside.  Any suggestions?

Well, I had to weigh in today for my longest loser challenge and I am now at 198.  I have 2 lbs to go until I reach my next mini goal.  I am hoping to achieve that within the next week.  I’ve been working out a lot and doing my best to stay within my caloric restrictions.  I am so glad to see the number I have left to lose under 60 again!  I feel that this time is different.  It really is a life change.  I think that I’m going to have a hard time finding a way to transition for burning a million calories to lose lbs to trying to maintain my weight.  I plan to switch from working out 7 times a week to 5 times when I get there and maintaining my calorie restrictions to stay there.  That’s still so far away, but I’m glad to be in onederland and doing all that I can do to stay on track.  I don’t know what I would do without the support of all of the great buddyslim members here.  I deal with so much crap, and with knowing that I am a emotional eater this road would be so much more difficult without each and everyone of you guys out there that care enough to read my blogs and support me.  I just wanted to say thank you and I love you all!

Okay, so it seems like the usual 6-8 hours that I’ve been getting over the last few years wasn’t enough for me, but lately with my extra exercise efforts it seems like anything short of 10 hours isn’t enough.  I have to get up at 6:45 every morning so that requires me to be not only in bed, but asleep by like 8:45.  I have 3 kids, a house, and a pain in the @** husband and I don’t think that’s possible to do on a daily basis.  Any suggestions?  I know that I’m anemic which causes this to be amplified, but I’m taking iron supplements, and a mulitvitamin my doctor suggested to balance my deficiencies.  I just am exhausted lately and it’s making it harder for me to not only get out of bed in the morning, but get everything done as quickly as I need to throughout the day.  Thanks so much!

Okay so you guys know that I am having a lot of problems here at home, and that I use my singing gift to help me out all the time.  I do have goals of working towards singing in public.  I am seriously considering to find a way to start towards that goal.  Even if it’s local little things.  I have a friend that is working towards her singing dreams, even though she has a physical hanicap and she went on a small town USA tour last summer!  I think that I might ask her for some advice!  I’m excited, and think that I deserve to use my gift to bless me and people around me!  I’m so exicted!

First of all without the support of all of my BS family I would be lost.  I have recently found that along with blogging and email with you guys, and working out that singing my heart out gives me strength.  Ilove singing, and hope to one day sing in public.  I know it’s a talent that I’ve been blessed with.  My kids are why I’m not pursuing it.  I love it, and it gives me amazing relief from heart break that I’ve had so much of over the last 7 1/2 years.  Any other suggestions?  I love you all, truly.  Thanks for being my family!

UHHH!  Why do I love such a mean person?!  He came home late and started this thing he usually does to drive me crazy!  He comes home acting like he’s so happy to everyone but me.  When I ask him something either he ignores me, or answers me in a smartass way.  He said things like maybe he’d be happier without me because I just get on his nerves so damn bad.  I asked him how I get on his nerves and he says by existing.  He’s so mean!  He says since I had his breakfast 5 minutes late yesterday that I’m lazy.  He thinks that since I stay at home with the kids, which  I do because the cost of childcare and all would take all my income, that I sit on my butt all day and do nothing.  That is SO far from true.  I get online for about 30 minutes daily, other than that I am up doing laundry, dishes, cleaning floors, helping the kids, taking care of all of the responsibilities.  I take on all the stress of finances and life here, all he has to do is go to work, come home, eat dinner, and lay around watching tv.  Seriously, that’s all he does, I take care of the house, yard, kids, bills and him.  I just don’t know what I can change to make him happy.  I know there are a lot of things that he has within himself that hurt him, like the problems he’s had with his parents, but I don’t see how treating me like trash helps that at all.  I am so sick of this verbal abuse, I just don’t have the finances to leave, or a place to go.  I do love him, and I’m not just a complaining lazy wife, I promise!  I just don’t know what to do.  I don’t expect anyone to have an answer of how to fix this, I just really need the support.  I have 15 lbs down right now and so many times before I’ve gained the weight back, or quite and gave in to letting food be my comfort, that’s why I need you guys to keep me strong so I can really make that change, and pray that God leads me somewhere with my life.  Thanks so much for every one of you!  You ALL are a true blessing to me!